a spectacle of self

Paradox of our time

2009-11-06T21:40:00.000-08:00

( I just had to re-post this article my friend got from some website. do enjoy .)

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less. We buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom. We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often. We’ve learned how to make a living, but not a life. We’ve added years to life not life to years.

We’ve been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We’ve done larger things, but not better things. We’ve cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We’ve conquered the atom, but not our prejudice.

We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We’ve learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill.

It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete.

Remember, spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever. Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side. Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn’t cost a cent. Remember, to say, “I love you” to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you. Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again.

Give time to love, give time to speak and give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.

Scenes from the hat.

2009-10-06T12:17:00.000-07:00

Go on.Move Foward.Dont you ever turn back. It's what making decision is all about. For every move you make, there will always be a positive outcome. Live with the consequences,for every good thing has its downturn. Keep on believing in what you think is true.

Hope doesn't stand alone. Always have Courage standing by your side.

Words fail.

2009-09-24T12:04:00.000-07:00

I'll go with you..
To countries I never saw,and shared with you...
Now, I shall experience them.. - Con te Partiro

Perhaps all i want is a friend like you. To love and appreciate, and to show that I care.
Perhaps all i want is to share an adventure with you.To grow old, believing, knowing you are always there.

If you ask me , "Why do you love me?"

I just can't find the words to answer.
But for one thing I'm certain.

Because it's you.

Love & God

2009-07-01T06:51:00.000-07:00

In wordly love, aspects like beauty, perfection, form, harmony in appearance, greatness, reputation, power position, satus, prosperity, family and lineage, etc. have all been regarded as reasonsfor love. Occasionally,there have been people who fall into the error of associating partners with God,; this is due to their excessive love and affection for these phenomenona,which may explain why idolatry exists. Such people are usually fond of facial or physical beauty, or manners, they applaud perfection, prostrating themselves before magnificence and greatness, sacrificng their humanity and liberty for the sake of wealth and power, and flattering in their greed for position and status.
In this way, by distributing their love and affection to many impotent creature, not only do they waste their emotions,which are meant primarily to be used in relation to the True Opulent and Mighty One, they also experience death after death due too unreciprocated love, or the indifference and unfaithfulness of their beloved ones.
As for believers, on the other hand, they love God in the very first place, and they feel affection to others through their love for Him.
For the sake of manifestation and blessings of the Just One, they keep in touch with every perso and every thing, declaring their love and appreciating these things on His Behalf.

"The all-Just made you a mirror of His Self,
A mirror of His Unique Self. "
-Hakani Mehmed.

Another adaptation from "Toward a Global Civilization of Love & Tolerance",M.Fethullah Gullen.

Love

2009-07-01T06:16:00.000-07:00

Love, is the most essential element of every being, and it is the most radiant light, and it is the greatest power; able to resist and overcome all else.
Love eleveates every soul that absorbs it, and prepares these souls for journey to eternity.
Souls that have been able to make contact with eternity through love exert themselves to inspire in all other souls what they have derived from eternity.
They dedicate their lives to this sacred duty; a duty for the sake of which they endure every kind of hardship to the very end,and just as they pronounce "love" with their last breath,they will also breathe "love" while being raised on the Day of Judgement.

It is impossible for souls without love to be elevated to the horizon of human perfection.Even if they lived for hundreds of years, they could not advance on the path to perfection.
Those who are deprived with love,as they are entangled in the nets of selfishness, are unable to love anybody else and die unaware of the love that is deeply instilled in the very being of existence.

There are impressions of love on the face of the sun; water evaporates,rising toward those impressions,and after it has been condensed in drops high above,the drops fall joyfully onto the earth on wings of love.
Then, thousands of flowers burst through with love, offering smiles to their surroundings.
Dew drops one leaves glitter with love and twinkle with amusement.
Sheep and lambs bleat and skip about with love, and birds and chicks chirp with love and form choruses of love.

Each being takes part in the grand orchestra of love in the universe with its own particular symphony and tries to demonstrate,by free will or through its disposition,an aspect of the deep love that is found in existence.

Adapted from "Toward a Global Civilization of Love & Tolerance", M.Fethullah Gulen.

IDEALIST

2009-04-17T17:58:00.000-07:00

I actually took a Personality/Temperament Sorter i googled a few minutes ago.And this is the report which has resulted.

Idealists, as a temperament, are passionately concerned with personal growth and development. Idealists strive to discover who they are and how they can become their best possible self -- always this quest for self-knowledge and self-improvement drives their imagination. And they want to help others make the journey. Idealists are naturally drawn to working with people, and whether in education or counseling, in social services or personnel work, in journalism or the ministry, they are gifted at helping others find their way in life, often inspiring them to grow as individuals and to fulfill their potentials.

Idealists are sure that friendly cooperation is the best way for people to achieve their goals. Conflict and confrontation upset them because they seem to put up angry barriers between people. Idealists dream of creating harmonious, even caring personal relations, and they have a unique talent for helping people get along with each other and work together for the good of all. Such interpersonal harmony might be a romantic ideal, but then Idealists are incurable romantics who prefer to focus on what might be, rather than what is. The real, practical world is only a starting place for Idealists; they believe that life is filled with possibilities waiting to be realized, rich with meanings calling out to be understood. This idea of a mystical or spiritual dimension to life, the "not visible" or the "not yet" that can only be known through intuition or by a leap of faith, is far more important to Idealists than the world of material things.

Highly ethical in their actions, Idealists hold themselves to a strict standard of personal integrity. They must be true to themselves and to others, and they can be quite hard on themselves when they are dishonest, or when they are false or insincere. More often, however, Idealists are the very soul of kindness. Particularly in their personal relationships, Idealists are without question filled with love and good will. They believe in giving of themselves to help others; they cherish a few warm, sensitive friendships; they strive for a special rapport with their children; and in marriage they wish to find a "soulmate," someone with whom they can bond emotionally and spiritually, sharing their deepest feelings and their complex inner worlds.

Idealists are relatively rare, making up no more than 15 to 20 percent of the population. But their ability to inspire people with their enthusiasm and their idealism has given them influence far beyond their numbers.

Idealists at Work
Idealists, as a temperament, are passionately concerned with personal growth and development. They are naturally drawn to working with people and are gifted with helping others find their way in life, often inspiring them to grow as individuals and to fulfill their potential both on, and off, the job.

Your beliefs are the arbiter of your actions, even if you cannot articulate those beliefs specifically. You hold a strong, clear sense of the way the universe works, what's "right" and what's "wrong," and what your purpose is in the overall scheme of things. In your ideal job, you can embody those beliefs in your relationships with other people. Because you likely have a talent for de-escalating situations and can almost always find just the "right words", you often significantly improve the morale of organizations to which you belong.

Silhouette

2009-04-06T04:25:00.000-07:00

"At times, the one you love will leave you,
because they love you more than anything else.. so as not to see you suffer, as they don't want you to neglect things that are more important...".

"If we're ready to love, then we're ready to let go..
We think of what's best for them..
We know there's a better road down there waiting, us faithfully believing they will smile and laugh...
once reached...
opening a new a chapter of life..."

The love silhouetted behind the words uttered...
The pain neglected,lying selflessly...
Not a single soul is concerned, hurtfully sowing the agony within... alone... restless...
It's the phase which people never talked about.
The phase when we hold on to nothing but ourselves,so as to continue life as it should...
The phase when we know all will be forgotten by them,soon...never for us...

Upbringing Peace

2009-03-19T04:54:00.000-07:00

Here's the reminder of the day,for myself that is:

In this world everything has its own appropriate place and time, it is actually already set up way way before everything has even barely started.
how do i know so & can be assure of?

It's because of a religion that i hold on to.
A religion which has every single answer to any questions raised.
A religion of which teaches us that worries in life aren't that big of deal.
We have other better things to think about rather than our own pleasures.
A religion which also teaches us that it's never been about me, it is about us being together in whatever obstacles we go through.

It was how our beloved Mua3allim (PBUH) actually responded and behaved that captured the hearts of the non-believers,and tackled many,many others.
The idea of giving in really is the fundamental of our peaceful nature.
For in every perspective,physically & mentally possible,our minds never fail to amaze us upon the strength and capability we actually own potentially if we purify in everything we do.
Agony won't be forever for us to live with,happiness will.The concept of the Hereafter teaches us so.An act of selflessness and purity is all we need for people to love,cherish,appreciate our own being...

So listen up dear, it's actually all in your mind. Everything won't stay as it is for no matter how long you think it's actually gonna be.Patience and kind will shine through the hearts of others. Maybe it won't now, but someday those selfish eyes will see the light you've been showering them.Never prioritize yourself before others.Feed the hungry.Feel the pain on behalf of another.

Have some faith in Him and let all of these problems flow through. The teachings of our Mua3allim will guide you through and through.

"thola3al badru 3aleina min thaniyyatil wadaa3...."

"The beloved (PBUH) didn't come and bring a new dawn of peace to the world without a reason..."

Truth.Love.

2009-03-15T09:16:00.000-07:00

I envy the sand that met his feet,

Im jealous of honey he tasted sweet..

Of birds that hovered above his head,

Of spiders who spun their sacred web,

To save him from his enemies..

I envy clouds formed from the seas,

That gave him cover from the heat,

Of a sun whose light could not compete..

With his, whose face did shine so bright,

That all was clear in pitch black night..

I envy sightless trees that gazed,

Upon his form completely dazed..

Not knowing if the sun had rose,

Or if the sky was one with those..

Who knelt, prayed and fasted too,

Simply because he told them to..

With truth and kindness,Charity

From god who gave such clarity..

His mercy comes in one He sent,

To mould our hearts more heaven beant..

I envy all there at his side,

Who watched the turning of the tide..

As truth prevailed and falsehood fled,

And hope restored life to the dead..

And men and women found their place,

With aspiration for god's face..

I envy the cup that gave him drink,

His thoughts that helped us all to think..

To be one thought that passed his mind,

Inspiring him to be so kind..

For me this world is not one jot,

If i could simply be a thought..

From him to god throughout the ages,

As revelation came in stages..

I pity all who think it odd,

To hear him say there is One god..

Or he was sent by god to men,

To hone their spirits' acumen..

It's pride that blinds us from the sight,

That helps all men to see his light..

He taught us all to be god's slaves,

And he will be the one who saves..

Humanity from sinful pride,

Muhammad has god on his side..

So on this day be blessed and sing,

For he was born to grace our spring..

With lilies,flowers, life's rebirth..

In a dome of green,

like his on earth.

Shaykh Hamza Yusuf

Desire

2009-02-16T14:03:00.000-08:00

Is the term 'relationship' between friends achievable with more than what we have or willing to offer, or will it simply disrupts the bond between the pair, never to be mended again...?
well gambling is totally not my game. i prefer being in a much safer and comfortable stand, and losing what i have is the last thing i would want to. But sacrifices are meant to be done in life. A handful of confidence has to be acquired. I can quite tell whenever the mind and the heart cooperates.

Through experiences it makes us wonder, why after all the decisions we make and choose, it is still not up to us.
Well it's needless to think about it anyway.
Life is not,like,an order from the menu.
instead it gives us the surprise of what's to come.
For instance if we ordered a medium rare steak and the waiter simply serves us a plate of Alfredo pasta.We can have high hopes and plan everything in mind, but fate is never in our hands.
There's a saying which goes something like ' the best doesn't always deserve the best'.

We will get to see these facts of life only after going through a certain phase.
So I'm just reminding myself and to others, that it is only a human nature to have the desire to possess things we want in our lives.
Even if we dont get those things at the end of the story, bear in mind that there are other better things in life that we ought to think about,literally.
A new beginning of a chapter always awaits us in every ending.

Complication

2009-02-03T08:03:00.000-08:00

life's complicated, we go through hardships every single day even if we're not ready to face them.
and here's a couple of solutions i've found so that we dont get entangled with its complexity :

1. follow HIS rules.

...and that's about it.

life's not that hard after all,IF we play by his rules. it's only about having faith and courage to trust,believing god is always there when we need him. He never really fails to be by our side.

"allahomma staudi3uka ma 3allamtaniihi fardidhu ilayya 3nda haajati ileih"

2009-01-31T04:21:00.000-08:00

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse.

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what your worth..

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream, down on your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face and I...

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.

flight of icarus I

2008-12-28T16:13:00.000-08:00

flying around with entrusted wings, he saw upon a shining star,gleaming from afar.
thousands of feet above the plains, the youngling grew fond and curious, foreseeing lust..
as the beam of light drew away everything he knew from before,within seconds,relentlessly neglecting a son's obligation .

"It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes..." the mind mumbled.

a mere distraction he replied.but could this ever be the highlight of a fellow nestling's lifespan..the pride & joy unfolded,bringing smiles and laughter with an endless bliss...

and so he followed the urge.

battling through the clouds and thunders upon,the wings stood firm, oblivious from stinging cuts and burnt feathers...steadily knowing only to go on...

as the sun grew nearer, his wings of faith began wavering..

or so i think

2008-06-30T10:26:00.000-07:00

It is never love when you find jealousy burning in every beat of your heart...Because such envious atmosphere is only prone to the lovers' heart content, which gradually leads to own-ness, rather than the former.
Jealousy IS a form of love. But to be haunted by this thinking forms a selfish character within one's self.

Thus it (love) is never as such if lust ignites in every meeting. this ecstasy yet blinding infatuation influences hatred and ego: whenever one feels the lust flowing through, he will only see the seconds & third steps of his own passion,blinded,ignoring the hundred steps ahead,& even worse, the very first step of only being in love.
Of which I am told, love is never rude nor selfish. getting straight to the desires & physical 'communications' is an act of selfness,and will lead to disrespect, which will eventually get back on track with hatred. People rarely realize these points of which are actually causing fights & being disrespectful towards one another. Humans make mistakes,we are bound to.It's all up to making decisions,and a fistful of courage.

Love never really takes any offenses, literally.In fact; it is actually blinded in a better way; not looking for mistakes nor scanning each & every move. When love binds between the love birds, only good things are bound to be spotted, each and every happenings, even fights, will always be considered 'the good times'.

& it actually lifts spirits up high, rather than forming ideas in committing suicide. Even when the love is snatched away by fate or even by others, one will never sow the envy-ness nor the hatred within his heart through time, rather it brings up tears of smile and laughter, thinking only for the better towards the significant other's content. Strong faith isn't needed, yet it grows through time.

Such facts might sound cheesy and cliche, or even fake. But these simple yet sophisticated words are only acknowledged by the experienced. Dreaming always gets us nowhere. Only that appreciating love is never really a crime.

Despite all, I myself am only hoping for the better. And I do believe tidal waves don't come very often.

A walk to remember...

2007-12-26T07:58:00.000-08:00

Love, knows no limits. Love is beautiful, caring, encouraging and brave.

Love is always patient and kind; it is never jealous. Love
is never boastful or conceited.

It is never rude or selfish.It does not take offense, and it
is not resentful.

It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to
hope, and to endure whatever comes.

At times, the one you love will leave you because they love you more than
anything else so as not to see you suffer as they don't want you to neglect things that are more important.

Love is caring. they believe life is better for you ahead. they cared. for love is never selfish.

Flavours of life.

2007-12-09T11:50:00.000-08:00

The world is of proportioned and fractioned..look around and we see people occupied within their own.surveying faces of joy,and of sadness..some noticed being of reluctance and discouraged, while others gleaming of boldness and confidence,calmly foreseeing an outcome without fear.
Some blinded from and searching still of the truth,and some just couldnt care less,grinning with satisfaction.

Do people make choices,pursuing at their very best for what they aspire.Can the world be made of heirs of excellence,being paid off for every little thing they achieve for,or does lady luck pampers a portion.or does one's inherent weakness has been pulling them away?
Everyone is of their own specimen,bared and bearing of the naked truth,
for a lifespan mustn't be of waste in regretion.

One's strength and endurance is altered accordingly.
We confront the world relying on what we have.
Thus possessing composure in life is but the key to satisfaction.
And by means of consistency is never a stroll in the park.

People oftenly quote life has and is filled with the ups-and-downs,its parts and parcels,sunshines and rainfalls,syncs of do-re-mis,its asam garams....etc.
Because life really IS full of suprises.

.....So have a little patience.
and be brave,boy.

2007-11-18T18:20:00.000-08:00

Indah..
Terasa indah..
Bila kita terbuai dalam alunan cinta..
Sedapat mungkin terciptakan rasa..
Keinginan saling memiliki

Namun bila,
Itu semua dapat terwujud
Dalam satu ikatan cinta
Tak semudah seperti yang pernah terbayang..
Menyatukan perasaan....

Tetaplah menjadi bintang dilangit
Agar cinta kita akan abadi
Biarlah sinarmu tetap menyinari alam ini,
Agar menjadi saksi cinta kita
Berdua...
Berdua..

Sudah..
Lambat sudah...
Kini semua harus berakhir
Mungkin inilah jalan yang terbaik
Dan kita mesti relakan kenyataan ini

Menjadi saksi kita berdua

ignition of an amiss passion.

2007-11-17T15:51:00.001-08:00

love.-noun : a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.or a strong enthusiasm, or liking for anything.

can love be managed.can love be split.in twos,or two thirds. can equality be arranged.
or can it not pleasure the victim?
as questions being raised i asked myself if i'm worthy of even spelling it out,
defying the struggle within.
can the passion of true love be lit again,for an amiss decision i've made has turned my world around.
can the passion and faith be questioned once again?
or must the misconception
carry on still.which shall i choose,
which will i lose. can passion go through veins of another,
or must it stand by itself.
for what IS the outcome?

and before long i asked myself.
what DO i want?